I cried a lot today.
I had some good cries.
Some that felt like my heart would burst open with sorrow.
I burst into tears randomly.
I am fine one minute and the next, I can't talk or breathe or focus.
I cried for a while in the bathroom, alone.
I cried while I lay next to Maya and my sweet angel woke up to look at me...with those eyes, her father's eyes
and her face was saying..."Don't cry mama..."
And then I looked over next to her face and saw the pattern my tears had made on the sheets...